Once upon a time, there was a man who ruled the world. He was all powerful and everyone revered him. He could be loving and generous, but he could also be mean and vengeful, you simply had to follow his rules. Some of these rules didn't make a lot of sense to his subjects, but they followed them, partially because they wanted the man to love them, but also because they didn't want to suffer the consequences. It was the way of the world.
After a while, the man started to get the feeling that all the people didn't really love him, as much as feared him. He was surprised and hurt by this and decided he would come up with a plan that would prove to his people that he was a kind, forgiving man who truly believed that love was the most important thing there is.
The plan he came up with was this: Rape a virgin and impregnate her. Then, when the child was grown, have him tortured and murdered. Then, then, people would truly realize how kind and loving he was.
And, Holy Fuck, the plan worked.
Of course, that's just one interpretation of the story. But it explains why I just can't buy into the whole religion thing. Because I really do believe that love is the most important thing there is. And that you should treat other people the way you want to be treated. Of course, being human, I don't always act in a loving way or take the time to think, "Would I want someone to do this to me?" But I do take solace in the fact that none of us are perfect. We all make mistakes; sometimes we learn from them, sometimes we don't. What doesn't make me feel any better is to think that there is an infallible being out there who never fucks up. It just makes me feel guilty. Thanks, Sister Mary Elizabeth.
My spritual beliefs are always in a state of ebb and flow. I don't think I could ever put them in a permanent form. And I really envy those who can adhere to an ancient dogma and feel totally comfortable with it. There was a time I pretended to do that. But I'm on the downhill slide of life and my "Truly Don't Give A Shit" hormone is kicking in pretty strong.
However, the Aged Hippie in me still wants to grab humanity by the scruff of the neck and shake them till their eyes rattle while screaming, "LOVE EACH OTHER, you fucking assholes! LOVE EACH OTHER!!!"